Sabtu, 31 Ogos 2013

North selangor peatswamp forest again?

if a person would ask me what is the weirdest course in nottingham, i would say environmental science.

would you believe that when there is  no boat to cross the river (when we were doing field work), my lecturer currently I'm working with suggested to kayak all the way to collect our samples. and when I say all the way; it is 2 km far!

another problem is that I don't know how to swim. and Lisa (Final year student I'm helping) trying to comfort me by saying "it is okay because they provide life saving jacket"

so the agency that is helping us provide 2 canoe. 1 with two sits which is more stable and another one with only one sit and it is hard to stabilise. So stephie (the lecturer I'm helping) took the one sit canoe and as soon as she was in it, the canoe flip under the water.

At that time I was so starled and I shouted most of the time not giving Lisa a chance to help Stephie so that my canoe won't flip over like hers. So, Stephie changes place with Lisa.

It was just fine canoeing and taking all the samples in 3 different places along the river until at this one moment we wanted to headed back to the river bank to wait for the agency to come back and pick up the canoes; Stephie fell into the river while trying to get into the canoe and almost pull me together with her because I was already on the canoe. I don't know how to describe the feelings. I was shocked, suprised,  petrified all at the same time until what I felt was just nothing.
Probably because my heart skip a beat that makes my brain unfunctional. Luckily, Lisa hold the canoe and Stephie was holding another canoe that make her float on the water and she said "Laila my feet is stuck on your bag"

That minute I realised the canoe doesn't flip over and I'm safe. Alhamdulillah....

I know my face was all white because of the panic. Slowly I release her feet from my bag.

When I say weirdest course up there, Stephie suggested to us to go into the forest afterward to take another sample. I looked at the time it is already 4 something. I was calculating the time because that night I have usrah. If we go to the forest I don't think I can make it in time.

So I said " I have important things to do tonight"

Stephie said " What is it?"

I replied "My stuff"

Stephie nodded. But she was thinking.

And at last she decided to still go to the forest and stated that I will make it in time for my stuff.
So we headed to the forest by car, and arrive at the forest at 6 something. and we walked into the forest like almost an hour and get out from there when it was already dark. It was quite an experience for me because we went there without ranger guide. and there was a moment that Stephie said there was something ahead of us walking 3 times on the walking path. She was scared too. All I was thinking at that time was a tiger. Its a forest, anything could be.

But then, like I calculated I didn't make it to go to usrah. because I arrived at semenyih at 12 something.

I feel guilty because I kept thinking the words of one of the kakak at daurah. she said "If we claim that we work for the sake of Dakwah, why we can't leave the work when Dakwah needed us?"

Khamis, 22 Ogos 2013

speaking of a rusting brain

I took 3 days to finish this several pages of journal =.="

P/s: along side, trying to finish raheeq makhtum and tafsir fil zilal juzu' 30

Selasa, 20 Ogos 2013

"You know sinner, even if you've broken your vow a thousand times...just come back... Allah's door is open..."

p/s: Thousand times I've failed. Yet Your mercy remains.

Isnin, 19 Ogos 2013

I borrow a good book

The art of influence by Chris Widener

this is actually quite a good book. I share with u some of its content

"influence is a gift that a person give it to u. they let u influence them. they make that decision not u. the only decision u make is what kind of person u will be. It is totally about your personal transformation into a great leader"

and some more, i read tafsir fil zilal this morning just wanna share

"AQ menyeru manusia kepada kemuncak y gemilang dan mulia y membuatkan manusia dewasa kerana dapat menundukkan keangkuhan dan jiwa mereka terbang bebas krn tunduk kpd Allah dgn istighfar"

sayyid qutub: surah an-nasr

*told u about the reading books thing now its a reality and I'm happy

Ahad, 18 Ogos 2013

value time

this past several days I stayed at home with my sister.

most of the time I surf the internet and try to finish a book about Rasulullah s.a.w.

while surfing, I found this instangram of an actor. a handsome one. and several actors and actresses. I realize one thing that they live their live to the fullest.

Well, I don't really know , but based on the pictures I saw I can tell that they rarely let a minute slip away without having fun. When I say having fun, probably we as muslims cannot take that as example. but our time of having fun is when we remember Allah.

I realize that most of the time we wasted to much on tv, movie, computer and fb.
It is not even real. something we can't hold on to.

We always ignore real things that happen around us to focus on something that we can't reach.

2 things I wanted to do is that get a way from these gadgets or at least don't spend the whole day facing them and get a good book to read. when i said books a no,no for story books, I mean a inspirational one or history of islam or any books that can add on my knowledge not to my delusional world.

I feel something is just wrong when a non-muslim can appreciate time more that we do.

p/s: istighfar a lot , avoid sins a much as possible and a lot of dua to yourself and your family in islam.