a day at Kuala Lumpur

This has been my third involvement in volunteering activity and guess where did we went?

HKL!

Hospital Kuala Lumpur

I don't know what to expect. I've been wondering and asking what we will do and what we will get, what Allah has prepare for us.

We went by shuttle bus of nottingham at 8.05 a.m

alhamdulillah, we didn't missed it.

we also enjoyed nasi goreg made by k.aha that eventually was my lunch too.

It has been quiet long I didn't use the bus services and take trains since I have a car and that is not good.

In the train we saw this one blind lady travel alone using public transport. It was unbelievable! when I reflect my ownself I feel ashame. I have two eyes and everything a human need and if I choose to stay at home doing nothing and watching tv with my family or studying so hard that I barely go out of my room while so many people out there don't even have food for dinner.

When we arrive at the hospital, we got to know new people who loves doing volunteering jobs. We even met 2 mothers volunteering and very friendly.

The first ward was a women ward.

I approach this old woman because she was the nearest patience to me. But the moment I sit beside this old lady all camera man came and took pictures like crazy. Hello you guys forgot that u need to ask for permission b4 taking any picture?
It was really an awkward moment.
When all the camera man went away finally I got the chance to have a little chat with her. I'm not used to talk to old folks. I don't even know what to chat. But I do know that old woman wanted someone to talk to. She is lonely, her husband just past away and she is ill (batu karang di hati). She even shed her tears while telling us that. She touches my heart deeply. I was imagining my mother what if I left her alone like that?
 Other patience are telling us the whole story of her life, about her children borrowing from ahlong, none of her children even care about her. Her adopted son is the only one who take care of her.

This makes me think a lot. I mean, for all this while we have been thinking about our own lives and our family. If we try to go outside of our own circle of friends. Try to look into the society, try to live with them. If only we know what are they going through in life we will never wasted a single minute. Because we know that there are a lot people out there struggling just to be alive everyday when we are struggling with books. They search for money with their sweat when the scholar bank in the money to us, they shed tears because this life is too difficult while we complain where to eat.

I have seen a lot today, how a disable person sing to get money, how a blind person selling calender, how one beggar beg money just to eat lunch but people seem not to care. It hurts to see such scene when we can do nothing about it. I've been thinking what would Omar al-khattab do in this situation? He who is really afraid that he would be held for accountability if an ant starving. Look how huge his taqwa is. Omar would never let this happen to us if he is still today.

Sadly he is not here. But we are.

and other sad story is that cristian and budhist always come visit the hospital in weekly basis volunteering. Where are the muslims?
come on guys, enough thinking about yourself and your own study and your own family. Go out there and get involve!
The society needs us more than we think. If all of our time that we wasted could be used for this beneficial work, we will never have problems in mat rempit, zina, dadah.
Go out there and do it for Allah. And wait what Allah has kept to teach and show you, the tarbiyah in it.

tafsir surah al-fatihah

Bila sebut Tuhan itu menguasai akhirat, orang terasa hebatnya Tuhan. Tuhan punya akhirat yang mutlak. Siapa yang boleh share kuasa Allah tentang akhirat?

Bila Tuhan sebut akhirat sahaja, tidak menyebut pun dunia, ertinya dunia itu tiada harga. Seolah-olah Tuhan berkata begini,' Dunia tiada harga pada Aku, tiada nilai walau sebelah sayap nyamuk pun. Kamu berebut sehingga bergaduh dan berperang kerana rebutkan dunia itu. Aku kiamatkan, Aku hancurkan sehingga tiada apa yang tinggal melainkan Akhirat dan Aku.

fall in love

this make me fall in love again with You

study week aku datang!

tadi masa drive keluar dari perkarangan rumah aku rasa sedikit hiba. tak tau knp.
a week duduk rumah rasa mcam tak cukup.

aku mengeluh sendirian, rasa tanggungjawab yg berat akan menanti di campus.

pastu aku cuba pujuk diri aku

"wei, khalifah mana pernah rehat. kalau kau rehat sape nak buat kerja?"

mase tulah baru aku rasa betul2 ape yg pernah aku cakap dalam usrah untuk adik2 " kerja kat dunia nie tak pernah habis, bile kita dah siapkan satu perkara akan ada benda lain pula kena siapkan dan kerehatan yg sempurna adalah di syurga"  

pastu aku pun sumbat telinga mendengar surah juzu' 30.

"wow, dah lama jugak aku tak dgr bacaan AQ"

pastu aku teringat kenangan masa foundation dulu yg time aku cuba untuk buang jahiliyah aku dgn setiap malam aku mesti nak dgr surah2 AQ sebelum tido.

"OMG, kalau diri aku yg dulu jumpa aku yg sekarang mesti dia sgt kecewa kan?" 


driving hour yg memakan masa hampir 2 jam tu aku habiskan dgn mendengar kisah nabi musa a.s

tapi bukan itu yg aku nak ceritakan di sini. hihih..

after dgr kisah nabi musa a.s aku teringat satu kisah masa pergi kursus kesukarelaan ade satu masa tu seorg akhwat ceritakan pada aku apa yang dia baru nampak

"tadi saya nampak ade seorg saudari nie offer seorg saudara minum air, lepas saudara tu minum saudari nie pula minum dari bekas yg sama, dah macam suami isteri dah"

aku pun tak tau nape aku teringat kisah nie, tapi aku rasa kasihan dgn saudari itu.

Aku rasa dia mahukan attention. Frankly, aku dulu pun sgt2 dahagakan attention. dan aku rasa aku lebih teruk dari saudari tu tadi dan sekarang Allah dah selamatkan aku. Kita tak boleh nak judge saudari tu sbb dia tak tahu, dulu pun kita tak tahu kan dan Allah yg bagi kita ilmu.

rasa kasihan pabila saudari itu tidak merasakan yg Allah telah memberi sepenuh perhatian kepada dia dgn memberikan tubuh badan yang sihat dan cantik, rezeki yg melimpah ruah.

itulah dia islam tak sampai lagi ke dalam hatinya pabila org yg faham tak melakukan kerja iaitu aku.

wah.. banyaknya kerja nak kena buat sebelum mati nie. takut tak sempat  nak siapkan nanti nak jumpa Allah pula..

p/s: 2 weeks can be longer if Allah help me by blessing the hour I'm using for studying.

presentation plant biotech

aku tak ingat lah bile ntah aku buat presentation ni tapi aku ingat group aku yg last skali kena present. dah la ade 10 groups. mmg nervous time tunggu giliran.

sampailah sampai satu group ni sorg student dia mmg nampak tak prepare langsung. Pastu kitorg pun kinda kutuk2 dia sbb drpd last sem dia camtu. kalau last sem takpe lah sbb itu individual work tapi kali nie group work and you will effect other people.

Ade satu part  lain group yg sama aku pun agkatlah tangan untuk tanya soalan sbb aku perasan ade kesalahan. Aku sebenarnya malas nak explain soalan ape yg aku tanya sbb dia dlm subjek yg aku belajar yg probably ade reader yg tak faham.

pastu bile aku bgtau kesalahan pada group tu, presenter tu cam tak ngaku pulak dia dah cakap benda yg salah. so aku pun begang lah, aku cakap dgn nada tak puas hati "yes U said that"
pastu dia pun memperbetulkan lah fakta yg dia bg.

pastu lecturer aku pun kata

"that was quite sharp"

at that very point aku sedar cara aku dah salah and aku sangat menyesal.

bile sampai turn aku untuk present ade part yg aku tak boleh nak explain. Then aku realized yg part aku tak boleh explain tu adalah part yg aku tanya pada group lain.

Aku sedar yg Allah seolah2 pay cash atas kesalahan aku.
dalam group aku semua org prepare and can present well except for me.
and bile aku tgk group yg aku tanya tadi semua org cm tak prepare except for this one student, my neighbour.

OMG, seriuosly tak tau cmne nak describe that feelings.

let it go

I wish I can let u go jahiliyah. all of it so that I can be with the one I love. ALLAH~